I keep silent
I feel the pain
I’m not the cause
change is hard
letting go is harder
Move on, I say…
Let yourself move on.
I keep silent
I feel the pain
I’m not the cause
change is hard
letting go is harder
Move on, I say…
Let yourself move on.
The full moon Shone brightly as it illuminated the outdoor Gathering of her classmates from 40 years ago.
Her anticipation of the evening to come held many surprises. Prior to this moment she thought about nothing but the excitement of seeing old friends and classmates; reconnecting and just enjoying herself.
The thought of possibly meeting someone was a distant feeling but surfaced now and then.
She busied herself with the planning of the event not thinking of what she would wear until… A picture of red shoes appeared out of nowhere on her phone. “My Cinderella shoes,” she whispered to herself. She knew these were HER glass slippers.
As she slid her smooth manicured foot into the red velvet booty, she felt magical… Her intuition led her to believe she would connect with someone this evening. When in reality, she had already made the connection… 40 years ago, 10 years ago, and a week ago . The seeds had been planted. She just didn’t know it.
As she walked onto the moonlit patio, her eyes roamed. There he was, the man she had been casually speaking with the week prior. Their eyes met briefly. She felt drawn to him. But kept her distance. She made casual conversation as she mingled around… but the red shoes kept moving her in his direction. The overwhelming desire to just talk and talk with him was intense… but the jagged edges of betrayal left a very deep scar. She was afraid. God was answering her prayer, and pointing her in the right direction, but her fears took over. She left that evening hugging him goodbye and wishing him well.
She went back to her room, took off the red shoes and knelt down and prayed. She prayed for guidance. She prayed for God to take away her fears because if he was the one she didn’t want to lose him.
…And she didn’t
Yes, this is me. This all began back in October of this year. I’m writing this because I have been blogging for over five years, when my past relationship ended. The scars that it left were very deep. I always wondered and prayed if I would ever meet someone that I could share my life with… not settle for…but with a man I was so in sync with and connected to, that we just fit.
I waited for over five years for God to answer my prayer. I always had faith that he had that someone special for me and he would appear when I least expected it. I needed that time to grow and find myself; to become confident in the woman I am today so that I could receive the person that God had for me. I’m so thankful that I waited and that I continued to have faith and just let God lead us to each other. And now… I couldn’t be happier. I’m so thankful and so blessed to have this wonderful man in my life.
It does happen, you just have to believe and have faith😊
Thank you Lord for giving me my grown-up Christmas wish 😉 😉
Merry Christmas to all of you. Don’t ever give up believing 🙂
I was blessed with an amazing summer… Opportunities… Beautiful places to see. I Do my best to look for that miracle in my everyday life. I certainly found them this Summer.
The historical volcanic Peaks that I climbed, on the North Shore of Oahu, to the Beautiful clear blue water that bathed my feet as I walked along the shore, were nothing short of miracles in my book.
The days I spent on a farm in Iowa, showed me the hard life of a farmer, the long days planting, and the prayers for just the right amount of rain.
I immersed myself in cultures and lifestyles so unlike my own. I relished in the simplicity that this way of life has to offer.
As simplistically as I live my life at home, it made me appreciate more, the little things that can bring joy into our everyday life; the colors of the leaves when the season changes. The red and orange sunsets that plaque-rd the sky, as if to say… “look at me, I am beautiful!” Or it might be a smile from a friend, a child, or someone you don’t even know, that brightens your day.
The way I see it, living is getting out there and experiencing life. Seeing knew places, meeting knew people… it opens your eyes to possibilities you never thought of. It can propel you in a direction that is empowering and help you grow as an individual.
As I always say… The Journey is the Reward
So GET OUT THERE!! Live It!!!
Keep Hiking to the Top,
My journey the past five years has taken me many places. But I find that the happiest of places is always on a trail somewhere in the beautiful outdoors in Arizona; or on a road trip to another state that has its own Beauty to share.
For me the outdoors infuses me with the energy and joy that keeps that smile on my face more times than not.
When I step onto that trail, I am noticing the beauty in each step I take and all that surrounds me.
My last adventure in northern Arizona took me to a few places of heavenly beauty. Oak Creek Canyon near Sedona is one of my favorite places. It continually changes as the seasons meld into each other . The beautiful fall colors, the water flowing through the streams and the canyon that surrounds you, brings peace to anyones existence.
I decided 5 years ago not to be that victim or to let what happened to me Define my life. The healing took place over a few years but I knew that if I didn’t start living my life and saying YES to life, that I would be stuck; stuck in a place that had no life, Joy, or happiness. I went out and found my own Adventures with friends or by myself. And I found myself continually drawn to God’s Beauty in the outdoors. For me, that’s my heaven here on Earth.
We all get up every day, go to our prospective jobs and do what we have to do to survive. But are we living? Are you living?
Saying YES to life and going out there and living it may have to be a directional change for some. A change that could Empower your life and Propel it to the next level. How exciting is that?
So ask yourself, “Am I living my life, Or am I just existing?”
Think about what you’re passionate about, what puts a smile on your face, and joy in your heart. That will guide you down the path of living, and saying YES to life.😊😊
As always… keep hiking to the top!!
The message at church today was very powerful and insightful for me. I’ve had a dream that when I retire which won’t be too much longer 🙂 🙂 that I want to write. I want to share my story, I want to inspire people in many different ways. When I started writing my blog 5 years ago through my hurt and pain, I expressed my true feelings from my heart. It was healing for me and for others. Certain people in my life would tell me that I wasn’t a writer. I continued to write anyway. We all have different styles of writing and I feel like I reached a lot of people writing from the heart. I helped others see that they could get to the other side… smile again and live their life like I am now. I always tell my students we all have a story to tell. And how we tell it is up to us… through writing, through speaking, or any way we can reach people. But if we can Inspire others as I feel I have, then keep on. I believe God put me on this path 5 years ago. I believe he will continue to guide me. I am a teacher. I will always be a teacher even when I retire. I just may be doing it in a different way. Follow what you’re passionate about. I know I am.😊❤✏
Peace and Love
“Things come to us not when we want them, but when we are ready.”
Patience is a virtue…so they say. I’m not sure that was passed down through my genetic makeup. Oh, I suppose there is some swishing around in there somewhere. It does come out now and then. But today… it has taken a holiday, and I’m not sure when it’s returning.
I do my best each morning to wake up with a grateful heart, a smile on my face, and the motivation to make it a great day!!! But today, and maybe a little yesterday… It seems to have escaped me. I seem to be standing at a huge fork in the road. My journey has stalled; taken a rest… I don’t know, but I’m stuck; frozen at a point in my life where I should be confident and moving forward.
My summer took me to places I didn’t think I would ever see. I climbed the highest peak in Oahu. I swam in the bluest water you have ever seen. I tasted food beyond my wildest imagination… I was living and loving my life. But…as wonderful as my trips were… I didn’t have anyone to share it with. I wanted to be sitting on Sunset beach with that special person in my life. I wanted to laugh and discover with them. I wanted someone’s shoulder to lean on, on the long flight home. After 5 years of being single, is God saying I am still not ready?? Does Karma really exist? I keep asking myself if I have done something not to deserve a good man in my life. I keep asking God, what else am I supposed to learn?
I’ve grown to love myself and to be happy with just me. The scar I wear proudly from my last relationship… remains just that… a Scar. It has healed over and I have moved forward. I’m ready!!! So I think.
So what else God?? Are you still trying to teach me about patience? I know I’ve stumbled a bit over the past 5 years, but I’m still here; wishing and wanting to share my life with the person you have waiting for me; or maybe there isn’t someone. Maybe I am just supposed to embrace being single and that’s how it’s going to be.
So give me that little nudge. Push me in the right direction. You may need to hold my hand at first, but I’ll keep moving forward, because I have never lost my faith in YOU.
As always… Keep hiking to the top!!!
I set out on a journey last week not a journey I expected to take. A long seven hour drive to California; San Diego to be exact. A drive I wish I didn’t have to make by myself.
You raise your children hoping that they will do good in the world, that they will respect others and add happiness to peoples lives. As parents we hope that kicks in sometime as they become young adults or even before. My son proved that today.
The dampness in the air becomes more apparent as I reach the coast. I have to ask myself, is he scared? Am I scared? I’m sure yes, he must be a little. And as his mother, I am a little anxious. But I’m so proud, so very proud of the decision my son made to donate his kidney to his cousin to save his life.
As I hang out in the spa (surgical preparation area) with my son and my ex in laws, I feel a sense of loneliness just a bit. I wish there was someone there for me, to hold my hand, put their arm around me, reassuring me that all will be well and for a little support :-). I stand there holding his hand, kissing his forehead as they wheel him off. I’m so proud. I started to cry but I feel a sense of calm and peace about me. I know God has his hands upon both boys and the amazing surgeons performing both operations.
I pull out my adult coloring book and the colors, seafoam green, grey, and mustard yellow, the colors that I seem to be attracted to as of late. I intently focus on the design and the pattern I’m creating. Time is not moving very quickly.
It has now been three and a half hours and I find myself unable to choose the next color. I’m at a stopping point I guess. I sit quietly watching the other people in the room knowing they are waiting for their loved one as well.
I’m the only one waiting for the surgeon. I chose not to leave. Within a few minutes the surgeon comes out, he spots me. He comes right over, takes my hand and says the surgery went very well and that my son was in recovery. I then asked about his cousin, he so gallantly replied, the gift of life your son gave him, is now being transplanted so he can live a fulfilling life. I started crying, sitting there all by myself, just crying out of sheer joy and happiness.
It was a very emotional day for everyone. Both boys are doing great. The recipient is responding well to his new kidney, his new gift of life. He and his family now can look forward to many many more wonderful moments together. Thank you to my son. Such a selfless act, I could not be more proud as a mom 🙂
The connection between both boys now will be much deeper than any of us could ever imagine. Both boys will see life through a different lens, with a different perspective and appreciate things so much more. We should all see it that way. We don’t need to be a living doner to look at life the way they do.
Keep smiling… life is good!!
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