I woke up this morning feeling angry conflicted and confused. “Why?” I thought. Why can’t I just wake up with feelings of joy and happiness every morning? As I calmed my emotions, I realized I was still healing and the early morning is when my defenses are down and I am most vulnerable to the feelings that are haunting me. These are obviously the feelings I/we try to avoid, therefore the feelings we should be addressing.
Avoidance is part of that denial stage some of us stay in for a while. We can fool ourselves and justify our thinking so we don’t have to confront those feelings and emotions that seem to be plaguing us.
So – I took a stand this morning and confronted my anger. Confronting anything or anyone in life is never easy. We have to open ourselves up to that vulnerable side we so often hide from. If we don’t, our issues, problems, and the many situations in our life will never be resolved; just shoved under the carpet as we pretend they don’t exist; and we wonder why we are not happy. We settle for being content and we miss out on what we truly want in life.
The healing process is a strange one. It may put you in situations you didn’t expect which in turn ignite new feelings that you haven’t had in a while; hence the confusion because you like the feeling but you are not sure where it is going to take you. We need to start trusting our instincts and ourselves again so we are open to the people and situations God puts in our life as well as letting go so we can move on.
I am done with the anger. That is the past now. As I take hold of the new phase in my life, I’m feeling happy and a bit conflicted all at the same time; new emotions to wrestle with and understand. But I know what I want in life and that is a great place to start.
Have you asked yourself what you really want in life? If so… what actions are you taking to get there?
TAKE A STAND – YOUR LIFE IS WAITING!