How much do we need to let go when we have ended a relationship? Can we hang on a little and still be friends? Talk weekly, but not see each other? I thought I could do all that. I just couldn’t break that last thread to the relationship we had for so long. This has been a 10 month journey for me. If you have followed my blogs you know the ups and downs of recovery. As we grow from our pain, we also take a few steps back now and then. And that is okay:) It is part of the recovery process.
Letting go is an emotional, spiritual, and mental process of releasing to God and all that surrounds us that we have so tightly clung to. We have to let go of our grasp and that feeling that we have to control our progress as we are healing. Letting go is saying you have faith in the Lord above that he will bring you through this and there will be something so much better on the other side.
When we hang on so tightly, we cannot see the problem, change who we are, or go after the desires we only dream about. We impede our movement when we don’t let go all the way.
I came to this realization this past weekend. As hard as it was to break that last tie, I knew if I didn’t I couldn’t continue to move forward. I was stifling my progress. As we let go, we may have that empty feeling in the pit of our stomachs and feel like we have lost them all over again. It will pass. I surrounded myself with my students and let them put a smile on my face.
It was a hard day. Knowing I would never talk to him again brought a few tears for sure. I will miss our long, in-depth conversations, our discussions on books, and sharing our spirituality. I am missing the memory of him and what we did. I know he isn’t capable of giving me what I need in a relationship; even with that said, it doesn’t make it any easier.
We can’t let our feelings and emotions control who we are and what we do. We can’t find the peace that God so wants us to have if we continue down that road.
So…the red handled scissors came out and I cut the cord. I don’t feel the tension dragging me as I push to move forward. I am free to sail and sail I will!
Today, give yourself permission to take care of yourself with the emotional, mental, and spiritual freedom! You’re on your way!