“Romantic love reaches out in little ways, showing attention and admiration. Romantic love remembers what pleases a woman, what excites her, and what surprises her. its’ actions whisper: you are the most special person in my life. ” ~ Charles Stanley
A fellow blogger Micah Tutay posted this the other day. It hit me hard. I realized I never had or felt this over the past 6 years. I was never the special person in his life. He didn’t give me his attention, maybe some admiration but I gave him all of this and more. I feel sad, but I won’t play the victim role. I have come to realize that these were his issues and problems not mine. He wasn’t capable of showing me his love. I accepted him unconditionally without boundaries, that is where I fell short. unconditional love is good but I’ve learned you have to set some boundaries or you will be taken advantage of. We all have to learn from the situations we are put in or faced with. I have learned a lot from this relationship. About myself, what not to do next time, and how much I appreciate the great times, the new adventures, and the person I’ve become.
I was fortunate to reconnect with someone I knew 32 years ago. I spent a few months getting to know him again. I felt like I was the special person in his life. I had all of his attention and he truly wanted to spend time with me. He had to go away, but I know his feelings were true and genuine. I know I can love again.
I have lonely moments but I trust God has a plan for me and I will be patient. I think that is the key; it’s what he wants me to learn; trust and patience.
Like I said, I have good weeks and some I struggle with. The healing process is in full swing. I take a few steps forward everyday. Keep trusting and be patient.