A year ago today, I was with the man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. We spent the entire day together doing things we had never done; enjoying the sun, the beauty around us and each other’s company. He wrote me the most beautiful letter about the love he had for me and then two weeks later he was with someone else. OUCH! But that was a year ago.
Today is my birthday. I am a woman in her 50’s and enjoying life on this beautiful day. As you all know it took me awhile to get to this place in my life and it has only been the last few weeks that an overwhelming sense of clarity has come over me. Somehow all the ducks seemed to have lined up and the light bulb went off! I know God played a part in that.
I awoke with the feeling that I can do whatever I want today and any day. I made my coffee and settled in to watch “Breakfast at Tiffany’s” with Audrey Hepburn. I love old movies and I don’t know why I chose that movie to watch, but I look at it as a God Wink not coincidence. Clarity presented itself again as I was watching. I was not Audrey Hepburn but George Peppard. He was trying to tame the wild in Audrey as I had been with the man in my life. You can’t hold on to someone who is continually trying to find the rainbows end. Oh, I tried, because I loved him so much. You have to let the wild ones go free. I’m not sure if he will ever be content or truly happy. But those are his choices/his life.
The song Moon River by Henry Mancini plays in the movie quite a few times. It brought back memories of when I was younger. My mother sang that song all the time. I know all the words by heart; even today.
“Moon River, wider than a mile, I’m crossing you in style some day” and on and on…
I understand what the words mean today. And sadly can relate to them.
So… today is going to be a great day! It is the beginning of a whole new life for me. I don’t need a man to be happy or to have fun. I am great all on my own. Coming to that realization has taken some time. As it will for some of you. We need to be healthy on our own before we let anyone else in.
“We’re after the same rainbow’s end– waiting ’round the bend, my huckleberry friend, Moon River and me.”
A new life begins today!
Keep moving forward!