“Every day and every night I want to see you and be with you. Yet I have no feeling of selfish ownership or jealousy. Let’s go for a long ride Sunday; let’s go to the mountains weekends; let’s read books in front of fires; most of all, let’s really grow together and find the happiness we know is ours.” ~Richard Nixon~
At this stage in our healing we need to start looking at what we want in a relationship. Learning from the past one, we know what we need to change and what we won’t accept anymore; what is important to us and what can we compromise on. The above quote struck me. This is something I would like written to me in a love letter. I was surprised that our ex-president wrote it. He wrote many love letters to his wife Pat. So maybe he made a few mistakes running our country, but he was a good husband. Love is different for everyone. What is it you want? Write it down. As you learn more about yourself, add to it or take away. It’s amazing how your view will change as YOU grow.
I have been on Spring Break this week. I found myself doing anything to be out of the house. I went to Prescott and went hiking and did just about anything to avoid the dreaded homestead. WHY? It still reminds me of him. It hit me at the end of the week about why I was gone. With a years lease attached to #102, I have to make this work. This is a problem; or is it? It is my attitude towards the problem that is the problem. Get it? No matter what we are facing in life, if we change our attitude it is amazing how our life will start to shift in a positive direction. So… I rearranged my Apartment. I am painting my bedroom. It looks like a different place. I changed my attitude about the situation that I thought was a problem. I feel good about my crib, humble abode, my place to crash, whatever you want to call it, it’s my home now, not our home.
So let’s sum it up. What did I learn this week:
I know what I want in a relationship. I will keep my eyes open for those red flags that I used to ignore. I have changed my attitude and am comfortable with where I am living. I may still have a down day now and then, but that is okay. I will continue to follow the path God has me on, because great things are just around the corner:)
“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.” Ecclesiastes 3: 4
We are all at a different stage in our healing. I am dancing. Where are you?
Keep moving forward.