“I pulled into the parking lot.  I saw his white jeep with the top rolled down.  I squeezed in right beside the man machine.  I felt a little queasy.  I was surprised at my reaction to seeing this piece of machinery that we had so much fun in, traveled in, and made ours.  I got out slowly, knowing someone else was riding shotgun now.  I touched the handle. I started to cry. It was as if a small bolt of lightning shot through me as my hand so gently opened the door to so many memories.  I set his mail on the seat, gazed inside as I remembered the fun we had; the rides with the top off, the music blaring with no destination in mind,  just the open road and all the places it took us.  As much as he tries, he doesn’t have that now.   I shut the door, but not to the memories.  I will always have those.  She isn’t the adventurer like I am or was.  He has the jeep, but the wrong person in the passenger seat.  He lost out.    I can only feel sad for him.  Life goes on.  I’m in the passenger seat of God’s SUV now.  Although, it can be bumpy at times, I’m having the ride of my life!”

This was me today as I delivered his mail.  I still feel a little twinge when I see a white jeep on the road.  I may not have the jeep, or any other jeep for that matter, but I am going on adventures and loving every minute of them.  No one has to make me want to be in the outdoors enjoying God’s beauty.  I just come by that naturally.  I can honestly say I am real.  I do not pretend to be someone I am not.

Rebound relationships often end up like his.  Pretending to be someone else to impress or keep another.  Don’t fall into this trap.  I know it’s nice to have that distraction, the feeling that someone likes you. But it usually isn’t real.  We don’t want to settle for something that will just end soon anyway.  It’s worth it to take the time to know who you are, before you commit to someone else.  Commit to YOU now.  Believe in yourself.  Be the best you can be before you venture out.  As you can see, I’m still healing.  But I’m getting better everyday.  I am happy with my life.  Isn’t that where you want to be?

“Tonight when you lay your head on your pillow, forget how far you still have to go.  Look instead at how far you’ve already come.” ~Bob Moawad~

Keep moving forward!

Kimberly Rae