I wrote this back in October of 2013. Somehow it wasn’t posted. I am posting it now just to show how our feelings from our past can creep in and take over our thoughts when we don’t want them to.
I’ve come to a point in my life where everything is standing still; the leaves aren’t moving, they aren’t even falling to the ground. The stream is just trickling, and the quick sand is getting heavier beneath my feet; I’m not really sad but I’m not really happy either. So, where in the hell am I?
Why do I feel like I’m in this void tumbling Around going nowhere?
I dig deep into my thoughts. I will be very honest with myself and admit, I haven’t fully layed to
rest the man from my past. Not that I don’t want to, I pray to God to please take him away everyday. So why is he still there?
The devil enters my thoughts and tries to take over. I fight him, but sometimes he wins. I pray and pray some more. I just want to follow Gods plan for me, but I don’t know what that is. I feel weighted as if an anvil is tied to my waist and I can’t move.
The bend in the road is becoming more of a right angle; not as easy to get around. I want to keep moving forward; I want the straight line back in my journey. I want the lonely feeling to go away.
So, I will continue to listen to God, read my bible, and have faith. GOD has never let me down yet 🙂
Keep hiking to the top,