I wrote this back in October of 2013.  Somehow it wasn’t posted. I am posting it now just to show how our feelings from our past can creep in and take over our thoughts when we don’t want them to. 

I’ve come to a point in my life where everything is standing still; the leaves aren’t moving, they aren’t even falling to the ground. The stream is just trickling, and the quick sand is getting heavier beneath my feet; I’m not really sad but I’m not really happy either. So, where in the hell am I?

Why do I feel like I’m in this void tumbling Around going nowhere? 

I dig deep into my thoughts.  I will be very honest with myself and admit, I haven’t fully layed to

rest the man from my past. Not that I don’t want to, I pray to God to please take him away everyday.  So why is he still there? 

The devil enters my thoughts and tries to take over.  I fight him, but sometimes he wins.  I pray and pray  some more.  I just want to follow Gods plan for me, but I don’t know what that is.  I feel weighted as if an anvil is tied to my waist and I can’t move.

The bend in the road is becoming more of a right angle; not as easy to get around.  I want to keep moving forward; I want the straight line back in my journey. I want the lonely feeling to go away.

So, I will continue to listen to God, read my bible, and have faith.   GOD has never let me down yet 🙂

Kimberly Rae

Keep hiking to the top,

Kimberly Rae