Have you ever come to a point in your life when you knew something was missing? You felt an emptiness, a void that you could not explain?
I can’t put my finger on any one thing, but my life is in limbo. It is an unsettling place to be. I trust God has a plan for me and I want to do what he feels is right for where I am in my life.
My interview for teaching in the middle east is this Wednesday. The work getting to this point has been overwhelming at times and costly. My passport went missing on Thursday. It mysteriously vanished from my documents folder. Not sure if someone took it or what happened. I am just going to chalk it up to the nastiness (from someone I don’t even know) that has been plaguing me the past 2 years. Because I can’t explain that either. Onward and forward I move. I have applied for an expedited passport at an ex-orbited amount of $400.00. The paperwork and time involved in this is more than I had expected. Again, doing my best to stay positive.
At this point I do not know what direction my life is going until I know if I am going to Abu Dhabi or not. I know I have to move from my current place of residence either way. So… do I pack to move out of the country and store my things, or do I pack to move to another apartment?
As I contemplate all of this, the question remains; what is missing in my life? A new adventure? A man (the right man) to share my life with? A different job? I don’t know. I am kind of free falling right now, and I just have to trust that God will catch me when my new journey has revealed itself.
All I know is that my journey is going to take a new path. Change has to happen for growth to take place. I’m not afraid of change because I know God has my back. So… I am going to head into the storm and face what I have to in order to grow.
The story below is a good one and one I take out and read from time to time. I found it again to today. I think I was meant to find it:) Maybe it will speak to you:)
“An old cowboy said he had learned life’s most important lessons from Hereford cows. All his life he had worked cattle ranches where winter storms took a heavy toll among the herds. Freezing rains whipped across the prairies. Howling, bitter winds piled snow into enormous drifts. Temperatures might drop quickly to below zero degrees. Flying ice cut into the flesh. In this maelstrom of natures’ violence most cattle would turn their backs to the ice blasts and slowly drift downwind, mile upon mile. Finally, intercepted by a boundary fence, they would pile up against the barrier and die by the scores.
“But the Herefords acted differently. Cattle of this breed would instinctively head into the windward end of the range. There they would stand shoulder-to-shoulder facing the storm’s blast, heads down against its onslaught.
“‘You always found the Herefords alive and well, ‘ said the cowboy. ‘I guess it’s the greatest lesson I ever learned on the prairies –just face life’s storms”
Similarly, if we face up to our individual adversities or hardships, they can become a source of blessing. God will not give us adversities we cannot handle, and he will bless us richly for patiently doing the best we can in the circumstances.
Keep hiking to the top,