Somewhere over the rainbow… I know it’s just a song, but how many of us grew up with the notion that dreams really do come true? Yours truly:) Yes, I know, I’m a hopeless romantic. I blame my parents, they made me watch the Wizard of Oz every year it came on. My mother read me every fairytale. I was in love with princes. They would always rescue me when my life got rough and I got scared. My dreams saved me. And then reality hit. “What do you mean there aren’t any handsome princes????” Who is going to save me??? Ahhh, the burning question. The answer is, I have to save myself. I can’t depend on someone else or a fictional dream. That has only confused my psyche on what is real and what is pretend.
In my last relationship, I always said he was my handsome prince. He rescued me from my self-doubt, pity, you name it. I fell in love deeply. Like I did in my dreams. I had my fairytale, so I thought. Or was I just living in a false reality?
I find myself still sitting at the beginning of the rainbow. I want a relationship, I think I’m ready for one, but nothing is happening. I can’t seem to take a step. A friend sent me the saying below and it gave me a jolt. He is still on my mind. Not on purpose. I don’t want him to be. I have moved on. I go about my life doing many things. So why is he still in the deep recesses of my thoughts??
Is this why I can’t seem to get to the other side? I think he will always have a special place in my heart. He was my prince after all:) But I can go on. I have gone on. I don’t want him back. The man he has become is not someone I would even entertain. Maybe I’m afraid to see what is on the other side of the rainbow. I must be guarding my heart. I have to take the armor off or I’ll never get to the other side. Then I think, maybe I had my one chance at true love and that is all I get. I guess I’ll never know until I tear the walls down and start journeying over that rainbow. God has my back. I do believe he has a great plan for me. I secretly hope someone to share my life with is part of the plan:):)
“Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue, and the dreams that you dare to dream, really do come true.”
I’ll keep you posted:):)
Keep hiking to the top,