They say they built the train tracks between the Alps and Venice before there was a train to use them. They just knew that it would come…
I hiked to the top of a very steep trail just to find ladybugs that inhabit the area. As I reached the top, I was looking at a wide open field with tall grasses and flowering weeds… beautiful in their own right. But I couldn’t find a one. Not one lady bug. The beauty in front of me was astounding. I laid down and looked up at the puffy white clouds that seemed to move their way around the sun. I closed my eyes and took it all in. My mind free to flow and think. When I opened my eyes, there were lady bugs all around me. ~When we aren’t looking, the most amazing things are attracted to us~
I am not looking. I have spent the last 4 years getting to know me again. I have embraced my singleness… although there is the idea of someone to share my life with.
So… I slowly tore down the wall that was protecting my heart. It was time. I opened up my heart once again. I shared intimate moments of my life. I opened my soul and became vulnerable to his kindness. But I soon realized, I was just his muse. Someone to fill a void in a seemingly happy life. (so he says) And so the wall goes back up again… this time it is made of brick. It will soften in time:) So I continue to live my life and wait… patiently, for the right one. When he enters my path – I’ll know. I’ll just know… he’s the one.
All I want is to be someone’s SOMEONE… Their only SOMEONE:) Not just a fleeting moment in someone else’s existence. I am worth more than that.
I know my day will come. The train may not be here yet, But I have FAITH… it will come:)
As always, Keep hiking to the top!