Facing Change!

The light from the bathroom window peaks under the door as I lay in my bed at 2:16 in the morning.  I’m wide awake.  Why?  I ask myself.  The room is quiet.  I talk to God for a while.  I feel confident my mother’s surgery will go well, my daughter is safe in New York and my son is doing great so… Why am I staring at the fan blades as they rotate around over and over?

Life is ever-changing.  I think when we begin to get into a rut, God/the universe wakes us up with something we may not like to get our attention.  You have all seen my transformation from where I started to where I am now and I have grown through change and made it to the other side; but I’m still climbing that mountain.  I’ve been hit with more change than I want to deal with now.  I can’t run away from it, or brush it aside; it’s still going to be there.  I think it’s natural to want to run away sometimes.  It’s times like these you wish you had someone to hold you.

As always, I find solace in my hiking trips.   They help center me and help give me more of a focus on what I need to do.  This weekend as I venture into the rim country, I will attempt to find my focus.  There are some days (like today) I wish I was just lost in the woods where no one can find me; the creek is running and the trout are jumping.  The trees make their own sound as the wind rustles through them.  Music to my ears!  Alright!! Back to reality:(

Life deals us a hand every day.  We can choose to play it or not.  If we don’t, we are playing it safe and life isn’t going to take us very far.    Taking risks is a part of change and growth; scary as it may be at times, it lets you know you’re alive and that you can do anything you put your mind to.  

So life is dealing me a few hands here.  And I’m just not wrapping my head around one of them.  That is teaching 2nd grade for the first time in my life, in the last year of my career.  I don’t agree with the decision to move me there.  But I have no say in the matter.  I don’t want to say, “I don’t have a choice” because we all have a choice no matter what we are faced with.  I could just quit.  But then I wouldn’t have an income, so that won’t work for me.  The negative energy that this whole situation is giving off doesn’t work well for me.  So… I guess I just need to embrace it, accept it, and move on.  One more year!!  I can do this.

As I was writing this a friend of mine called and gave me some positive ways to look at this new change in my life.  Thank you to him for his words.

I purposely wore my read dress today to feel energized and ready to take on what ever came my way.  It always helps when I wear red.  I feel empowered:)

So as my day comes to a close I feel good.  I have so much to be thankful for, I shouldn’t feel any other way!  I can still hear the stream flow and the fish jumping!

 

Keep hiking to the top!

Kimberly Rae

Living With Intention!

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Do you live with intention?  Do you get up every morning with a plan or goal in mind?  Is your day laced with a self-serving attitude; or do you actually see the other people around you?  How do you see your life? Is it going anywhere? Or are you just muddling along until something finds you?

HOW MANY OF YOU ARE FAILING TO MAKE THE TURN?

If we are still in the healing process, we could still be just muddling along.  I know it is hard to take that next step or to make that turn.  I remember it being one of the hardest things I did.  We have to have intention and purpose to our existence in order to grow and live our life.

Look back at what I wrote yesterday.  Do we surround ourself with the right people? We may think we are in a good relationship but if we are not moving forward with our life, if we are still in that same job we hate, making the same money, and barely making it financially, and just existing with a few good times here and there, then what are we doing? What are they doing to help us with our intentions and purpose for our life?

I know I have used this quote before, but it fits so well with my message today, that I will share it again:

“God knows who belongs in your life and who doesn’t.  Trust and let go.  Whoever is meant to be there, will still be there.” 

In order to move forward with your life with intention and purpose, you may need to let go.  Trust that God is with you.  He will catch you if you think you are falling.  Faith in him is what saved me.

Move forward with intention and really live your life!!

Keep hiking to the top!

Kimberly Rae