When Life Happens…

The birds were singing, the alarm went off, but I just couldn’t get out of bed.  My sleep was restless as I was thinking about our family cabin… hoping and praying that it would not be destroyed in the current fire.   Working out was not going to happen today.  My stomach was in knots and I found myself crying at the oddest times.  Sometimes, life just happens and you have to take a day to collect yourself.  You can’t feel guilty.

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The cabin my dad built

Some of you may say, it’s just a cabin, but to me it is so much more.  My father built it in 1959.  He was the first on the mountain.  I’ve been going up there for the past 58 years.  It is my sanctuary, my place of solace…my escape if you will…the only home or constant in my tumultuous life.

I have explored every inch of that mountain.  I have special places that only I know about.  My father’s cabin is all we have left of him.  His ashes are spread there among the irises.  So you see, it isn’t just a cabin.

My brother and I live down in the Valley.  When we received word of evacuation, we were too late.  We were not able to go up and retrieve anything of importance, especially my dads 53 Willy’s jeep.

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My dad’s 53 Willy’s

The fire is still raging, and has consumed over 28000 acres so far.  Right now it is about 4-5 miles from our mountain.  But… the firefighters are working diligently to save it.  I have faith and every confidence that they will.

Part of staying healthy is to take care of your emotional health as well.  So this was a day where I spent time with my family as we supported each other.

Tomorrow is another day and working out is on my agenda.  Building those endorphin’s up and feeling good no matter the outcome.  It’s all in God’s hands.

Our plans this 4th of July weekend were to be up there… enjoying family, making new memories, and hiking all over.  The Kayaks are put away, but the hiking shoes remain.  I’ll be exploring somewhere this weekend.  The outdoor’s is my playground.  Always staying active!!!

May you all have an active and healthy weekend!!!

Kimberly Rae

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Looking out over our mountain.  
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A New Journey!

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“One moment she was alone and lost… and 4 years later she emerges, anew.”

I have decided to take a different path with my blogs.  I have healed and moved on from my very painful relationship.  My blogging helped me to move on.  Sharing my raw feelings helped me deal with life.  Not that I won’t stumble… I am only human:)  But life, my life has moved on.

After everything I have been through I look at myself as a tight rope walker.  Because the tight rope walker is the one who doesn’t need a safety net.  He can move on with his life without someone in it.  And that is just what I did.  My faith is all that I needed and need to keep moving forward.

I love to write about my discoveries, whether they be about life or the many trails that I happen upon and learn from.

I am fortunate enough to live in a state that allows me to hike all year round.  The desert is beautiful in it’s own right.  You just have to see it and sometimes look for it.  I get to see this mountain everyday.  I have hiked to the top and all through it.  And just yesterday, I discovered by accident a new trail behind this amazing, majestic mountain.  You never know what you are going to find, on the trail or in life.  It is how you look at it that makes the difference.  I choose to see the beauty in what is in front of me.  To some, they will only see ugly, prickly cactus and a ground full of dirt and sand.  But when you open your eyes, and I mean really open your eyes… You see so much more.

That is how I view life.  My eyes are wide open and I choose to enjoy the moments put in front of me and see the desert in all of it finery as a gift from God.

So I challenge you… open your eyes and see, really see, what is in front of you.

The peace and joy I get from wandering these desert trails only remind me of how grateful I am to be alive, to enjoy the trails I have been on, and the many more I will explore!

Enjoy my view below:)

As always…. Keep Hiking to the Top,

Kimberly Rae

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It’s a Guy Thing?

To all my followers and blogging friends out there, I find myself in a bit of a quandary.  Not sure quandary is the right word, but it works for now.

I have put myself back out into dating world.  Not that I’m out there looking, I just know I’m ready if someone should find me:)  What I am finding is that only older men are attracted to me.  Men too old for me.  All very nice and I have enjoyed conversing with them, but then they want more and well, I don’t.  There just isn’t anything there.  If they just wanted to be friends, I would be fine with that.  There has to be a spark; something that warrants more interest or pursuit.

So last weekend as I was hiking with a group I go with, the older man of the group of course attaches himself to me.  He stays by me the entire 9 miles in the canyon.  We had a great conversation, I enjoyed his company, but that is as far as it goes for me. He continued to hit on me even after the hike and has invited me on a few others through the meet-up group.  So now I have signed up for a big hike this Sunday and he is now going.  I am not comfortable.  I feel like I have to avoid what I want to do because he isn’t giving up on me.  I don’t want to hurt his feelings.  What do I do????

Now, on the other hand I managed to talk with a few other men, more my age (and who I wouldn’t mind getting to know.) As we hiked along the rugged trail, I found  out they had girlfriends and other things about them that led to some great conversation.    So I asked them why their girlfriends were not out here with them.  They said this wasn’t their thing.  I responded with “Yeah, but it’s your thing and something you like to do all the time. Doesn’t that get in the way of your relationship?”  They replied with, “We have to make it work, or else we will be alone.”  Then they asked me where my significant other was, I told them he hadn’t found me yet.  LOL.  I said I wasn’t going to settle.  That who ever I find or who finds me will have to enjoy the outdoors as much as me. This is where I spend a good deal of my time. Am I wrong in my thinking here?   They asked me if I liked being alone.  I chuckled as I responded, “I’m not alone. and you wouldn’t be either.”  Why don’t they see this?  These are intelligent men I am talking to here.  Do they really think they need a woman to complete them?  To me that is a form of insecurity.  Again, CONFUSED!

So, is this just a guy thing It seems to me that guys settle because they don’t know how to be on their own.  I am not including all men in that assumption, but the ones I’ve met seem to follow it.  Why is that?  I don’t understand.  I agree you have to work on any relationship, but make it work?  NO.  If you have to make something work, that’s like trying to fit a square peg in a round hole.  It isn’t going to happen unless you shave off some of the corners and push it through.  Then what do you have?  A lost identity. It wasn’t the right fit to begin with.  I would rather be where I am at now, knowing who I am and enjoying my life, than not sure who I am and settling for someone who is just OK.

I want to naturally fit with someone.  I had it once.  I hope I can find it again.  God has someone for me.   I am being very patient and enjoying the journey:)

Any feedback or suggestions welcome!!

Keep hiking to the top!!

Kimberly Rae

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