To Be or Not to Be…Healthy…

The sun shines down on this state as if we were the only ones who needed the warmth of its fiery orb.  The temperature today will reach 117.  Not a record, but close.  A great excuse not to go to the gym, or workout or even go outside.  But we can’t let obstacles such as these keep us from getting out there and doing our best to stay healthy.  Being healthy is a choice that we have to make. With that comes responsibility and accountability.

I am 59 years young.   I have been active my entire life.  But as we age,  we don’t bounce back as easily and the things we always loved doing are a little harder than they used to be.   As young as I am mentally, it doesn’t seem to match up with my chronological age.  I have bulging discs in my lower back and some arthritis in my wrists. But I do not let these ailments sideline me.  I can still do the things I love, with moderation.  I choose to be healthy.  Okay, so I can’t run anymore or climb a mountain.  But I can still hike, kayak, and work out at a gym.

No… I am not one of those who works out all the time and has no life other than the gym. I have a job just like most of you.  I have a house to keep up and a man in my life.   I have to fit working out into my day.  I make it a priority.  I workout 3 days a week and do something active on the weekend.  I eat right, but I’m not a fanatic about that either.  I do not deprive myself.

I believe a lot of people think being healthy means giving up just about everything you love.  When in fact it does not.  I always tell people, give up one thing that isn’t good for you.  Start there.  Like pop or fast food.  Once you take one of those out of your daily existence, you will begin to notice a difference.  Setting goals, making a plan are important to reaching that healthy lifestyle that fits you.  My healthy lifestyle may not match yours, but then it shouldn’t.  It has to be right for you.  As always, you should consult your doctor before starting any big change.

I will be sharing weekly, the things I do inside and out.  What I eat and my downfalls.  I’m real.  I do not pretend to be anyone but me.   I will share delicious recipes with you and my typical workout.  I don’t strive for perfection.  I do the things I do, to be HEALTHY, not to look like I could compete in a body building competition.  If that is your goal… Go for it.

The toughest part is getting started.  So what are you going to do?  Follow my journey and maybe I can inspire you to get going!!! or… to keep going:)

Staying healthy and keepin it real!!!

 

Kimberly Rae

 

 

 

 

 

 

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What I learned on My Summer Vacation…

How cliché right?  Especially if you’re a teacher.  I would never give my students a prompt like this or any prompt for that matter.   They should write what they are passionate about not what I tell them to write about.  So I’m writing about what I learned this summer, because it is important to me.  We are always learning and growing as we move on in life.  I’m still discovering who I am as we all should.

As a teacher, my 3 month summer vacation is really only 2 months and then when you take away the week of classes, taking down and setting up, I am left with 5 weeks.  I can’t believe school will be starting in a week and a half.  I have been in my classroom almost everyday since I got back from my travels.  The overwhelmingness (OK, not a word)  of it all is starting to hit me as it does every year.

Before I reflect, I want to preface my awareness’ by saying, I have moved on with my life.  But as you know, I keep it real.  And when you’re real, your true feelings and emotions come out. So many of us repress them and hide them from others.  We are still allowed to remember the past even when we are moving toward the future.

I traveled on some familiar ground this summer; ground I shared with the person from my recent past.  I could tell you every place we stepped foot in and on, what we were wearing, what we said; I felt the laughter and the good times we had in all those places.  I miss that part of him; that easy-going, fun, spontaneous, adventurous person that he was.  The way we were always in sync; the depths of our inner souls that we knew and shared with one another. That is a lot to have with someone else; maybe only a one time thing.  But I also realized, when we came back from our travels that he wasn’t always there for me.  I fought for his attention.  He was in his own world; I was just someone to keep him company when he wanted it.  He put me down more than I wanted to see.  But he would encourage me at the same time.  He didn’t know what he wanted; he still doesn’t, he just pretends.  No matter now.  I didn’t feel the hurt in my gut.  What I felt was joy and peace.  I know how far I have come.  I was weak when I was with him.  He left so I could become who I am.  That I thank him for.  I wish him enough.

 

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I know that my career in teaching elementary is almost over.  I came to see how much I want to be in nature, so I can hike, kayak, write and just enjoy all the beauty that God has created.  I find myself gravitating to those places.  The same places he and I talked about settling in.  I learned that I have always been an adventurer.  I looked back on my life and realized I was always looking for that next adventure.  I just wasn’t with the right person at the time; until I met the last person in my life.  I am more like my dad than I thought.  He always told me to live my life; even the night before he passed away he made me promise to keep exploring life.  Well, I certainly have.

I have overcome fears that I had in the past.  I find myself experiencing things I would have never tried before. (Outdoor adventures, that is:)) Because there is no one saying behind my back, “Oh, she won’t do that.”  I can, I will, and I have:)  So there!

I am finally at a place in my life where I like who I am. I don’t need a man to be happy or to define me.  I have male friends and acquaintances that I value and respect. But I haven’t met the man who I’m going to share my life with; not yet.  Notice I said, “I’m going to.”  My thoughts are positive about where I am and where I’m going. I share my happiness in life by smiling everyday, hoping that it catches on to the next person that sees me:)

I learned that I had to lose a few good friends in order to move on with my life.  I cherish those relationships and will look back fondly on the time I had with them.  I let the negative things go and focus on the positive. Life is too short.

So… as the summer comes to an end for this teacher, I wish you all well enough;  enough life and living to sustain you, enough to be happy.

Keep hiking to the top,

 

Kimberly Rae

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Departing Friends

63098_615062635188303_103027800_nI sat atop the tall red chair in the front of my classroom. I began to read a page in a book that has a great message about life.  I’m always sharing life lessons with my students. I think I chose this one because I was struggling with it in my life.  Words can hurt more than we know.   The words were coming out of my mouth but I wasn’t hearing them.  The colors in the room began to run together and instead of 29 students I was seeing  numerous heads attached to one body.  I fell to the floor or gracefully put myself there.  29 caring young boys and girls came running over to me.  In that moment I felt so needy but yet so loved.

Why was this happening to me?  I was perfectly fine this morning.  As I look back at the week, I realize I didn’t sleep well, and I was gone almost every night; I think trying to escape what was really going on.  It is easy to say “Let things go” and I say it a lot to myself and others, but we are only human and sometimes our emotions take over.  I think our bodies have a way of telling us when we need to slow down and take a look at where we are at and what is taking over our thoughts. I’m going to be sad for a moment.  We are allowed to be sad, we just can’t linger too long or it will over take our emotions and ability to keep moving forward.  So just before I fell into a deep sleep, I shed a few tears and let the emotions flow out.  I took my moment:)  I slept for 4 hours.   I woke up refreshed, but I needed to deal with the WHY of it all.

 

I know that when you lose someone in your life, some of your friends will go with them.  But that already happened. It’s been almost 2 years. I have forgiven and moved on.  But when  negative things about you start to surface in your work place and from people you are still friends with, It is hard to let that go.  When you work in the same school district as the person you were with, things get back to you.  Hurtful words coming from him; still hurt.  I have lost 3 friends in the past month because of those words.  I know if those people were meant to still be in my life God would have kept them there.  We are human.  I don’t think it matters how old we are, slanderous words still have an effect on us.  But then we need to learn from that, don’t we?

 

As I sit here on this Friday night, I am missing the friend I was supposed to be entertaining.  It saddens me that he would believe what he has heard and that the person from my past has to make me look bad to exist in his messed up reality.  I would never do that to him.  I guess I expected more from a man who truly did love me at one time.  The barrage  of things thrown at me this week were maybe a little more than my psyche could handle.  Sleep is such  a great elixir;  isn’t’ it?  It gives your thoughts and emotions a break.  I think I just needed to shut down for a while.

I always find my focus and my center on the trail.  I look forward to tomorrow when I hit the rim country with a friend, to be one with nature and the beauty that will surround us.

479696_234370956697857_657315989_n God knows what he is doing in my life and I accept that.  My light will continue to shine as I wear my scars proudly, to show that I have healed.  My armor is strong;  I have pulled out the bullets that tried to penetrate my heart.  He cannot touch me anymore.  I am Titanium.

So farewell to my friends who have moved on as I welcome in the new, that may not have crossed my path yet.

God is watching over me and He’s brought me to where I need to be:)

 

Keep hiking to the top!

Kimberly Rae